Having a bit of a moment today - realising how many friends have moved out of my life since my wellness journey started. There are some days that just throw a person but here's what I'm doing: 🔸Breathe Into It: I've learned that resistance to the change is often WAY more painful than the change itself. I'm letting myself grieve, recognising that the connections used to be beautiful and that they're over now 🔸Screw Black & White Thinking: To the last sentence of the previous point, those moments are allowed to stay magical despite being absent in the present, or in my case, worse off in the present. These two things can exist at the same time and I get to be sad without tainting the memories 🔸Let's Not Repeat It: I made a list of ways I tried to process before that didn't work. That way I ensure this pattern breaks and I truly absorb the lesson 🔸Live It: I plan to create a character like the current distant/absent/broken connection. There's only one way I can fully love them again despite our separation, and that's through art. By crafting a character in a novel, game or other form of interactive expression, I get the chance to walk their shoes. Honestly, gaming has been one of my most potent forms of healing for this reason 🔸Let It: No more stories and interpretations. No more clinging onto previous circumstances that repeated. No more noise. Stillness and the willingness to receive my truth Any of you guys dealing with anything similar? What would you tell your younger self? I personally wish I could hold mine. Much love, light and a sprinkle of darkness for those who need it 🧡 (so much love to GregThings and their power art - https://www.gregthings.com/one-worth-saving)

Posted by Zanthe Steenkamp at 2024-10-15 13:43:08 UTC